LP - Crawling

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming (confusing what is real)
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling (confusing what is real)

Album: Hybrid Theory
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Here's the piano version of this song. Lovely!!

I personally love this band and this song is one of my favorites. Though the lyrics seem literal, they are esoteric actually, abstractly rich and deep.

I interpret this whole song as a situation that goes on in our minds. For those who have experienced it, comprehension is likely to be easy peasy, effortlessly. You'll agree, it's really an awful thing (things that messing up your mind) to go through. At times, you feel like there are lots of things spinning around in your mind and this spinning doesn't show any sign to stop. You have this insecure feeling when it becomes too overwhelmed it consumes your body as well. Inevitably, as time passes by, it's becoming more and more strenuous to get out of that feeling. Such, surreal complexities. Before it's too late, you'll realize that fear is that very feeling, that intensifies insecurity! "There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface",  deep inside you realize, it's you who caused this misery, your mind!

When referring to the primary source, the one who's written/composed this song himself, Chester said, "Crawling is a really like... a really emotional song, it's got a lot of deep lyrics. It's kind of like admitting something that you don't really like to admit, which is, you know, having a problem with yourself. You know what I mean? And sometimes you have to like learn how to deal with living inside your own skin and being the person that you are. And that's not something to be ashamed of or anything like that. It's just something that isn't always peachy. You know what I mean? You're not always gonna be exactly the person that you wanna be or the person that you thought you were. You know? You gotta live with yourself for the rest of your life."

But, nonetheless, I hope we should just bear in mind that we aren't the only person with things in mind. You are not alone. Someone, somewhere feels, if not the same exactly, similar to what you are feeling now. If you feel like you really can't bear it anymore, please, reach out, seek help! There's nothing wrong for us to admit that we have this mental difficulty and maybe some talks might ease our messy mind and bursting chest. We've gotta have faith in ourselves. Trusting and loving ourselves is the very first step we should take.

Or, maybe if there's someone looking you up, pouring their heart out to you for this similar kind of thing, hopefully you'll take it seriously. This is an illness, a serious one, and we should treat them just like how we'll probably treat a person diagnosed with cancer, tumors, and other critical illness. And just like other major illnesses, they too need special treatments.

Here, I share Directory of Counseling Services available in Malaysia:
http://mmha.org.my/resources/directory-of-councelling-services/

You'll be missed, CHESTER BENNINGTON! sincerely. ;(